Callboy stopped calling. We all knew it would happen. I got my feelings hurt. We all knew that would happen too. Here’s a slight twist though. When I hadn’t heard from him in a few days, I texted and his response made me think that I’d made him feel as if he couldn’t talk to me about stuff that was bothering him. I instantly felt bad for not being there for a friend. Of course looking back now, that’s not at all what his text had meant. What it meant was, “I don’t want to talk to you.” Being the sap I am, I wanted to right the wrong and called saying, “I’m on my way to work. I expect a call when I get home though telling me everything.” Which to me meant, “Sorry I wasn’t there for you. I will be now.” and to him meant, “If you don’t want to talk to me, too bad. You’re going to anyway.” …and that was that. Never got the call. Instead, I got a text basically saying, “Stop making me feel like I have to talk to you.” That I completely understood and it put everything else in perspective. Once again, I was just stupid and didn’t understand the male lingo.
….and then there’s my sister. If you read a couple of posts down, you know she’s been getting on my nerves big time. In her struggle to feel good about herself, she consistently manages to put the females around her down. I’ve bit my tongue so many times now that I can’t do it any more. I’ve been avoiding her since the birthday party…and she’s not taking the hint and leaving me alone.
The other morning, she IM’d me trying to be all cutsie and I wasn’t in the mood for it. The night before she’d offended my kids and made them feel bad. I really just wanted to punch her like I used to when we were kids. Instead, I listened to her tales of greatness while rolling my eyes and trying to just ignore, but then she brought up her myspace. *groans* The conversation got back around to Callboy who’s linked on her myspace and that was just too much.
Being uncapable of dealing with drama, I promptly opened my mouth when I shouldn’t have. I asked her to remember how much he was calling me last year. She knew. She even snatched my phone out of my hands one day to answer it and talk to him for half an hour. From that point on, I’ve gotten to hear how he likes her better, plays on her server, still talks to her after he stopped calling me, blah blah blah. I told her that he just suddenly stopped calling. She said, “That’s because he started seeing the girl he was dating.” Which was my point exactly. He spent months and months calling me sometimes four or five times a day, texting and talking on IM. Now I realize I’m antisocial; however, with that much attention, what person isn’t going to start getting attached and think there’s more involved?
I told her he’d called on my birthday and had been calling regularly again…and just stopped again. She said, “Well, he’s been busy at work. It’s been tough on him…” I said, “I know. That’s why he called. He needed someone to make him feel better. An ego boost. So he called me. Then didn’t even have the guts to say, “Okay. I’m done now. Get back to your regularly scheduled life already in progress. He’s a jerk.”
Now most sisters at this point would say, “I’m so sorry. He shouldn’t have done that to you.” Not mine. She continued to argue that he’s been nothing but good to her. Obviously that plays into her “He likes me better” way of thinking. I couldn’t take any more. I told her I had to go to work and logged off.
The more I thought about it, the more worried I got. The last time I told my sisters about some guy I had gone out with, it turned into this huge ordeal. They literally teasted me like Jr. High style. Then my mom got involved and wanted me to marry the guy because he was a living and breathing man that took an interest in me. Obviously I’d never find anything better. Forget that he beat his wife and was a recovering druggie and alcoholic. She said, “At your age, everyone is going to have baggage.” *boggle*
Then it hit me too that my sister would probably not be able to resist saying something to Callboy…and fear set in. Callboy did nothing wrong. He told me upfront what was going to happen. I’m the stupid one that thought I could talk to him and not get attached. The only thing he did wrong was not tell me before he stopped talking like I asked him to. That way I wouldn’t have to guess if it was something I said or did that made him stop. I’d know he was just finished. I thought I could handle it, but I couldn’t.
Soooo…I texted Callboy with a quick synopsis. I should have known better. He’s too egotistical to just take it as it was. I was mad at my sister, popped off, and he needed to be aware so he wasn’t caught off guard if she said something to him. That wasn’t enough for him though. He wanted to know details. What did I tell her? What did she say? Why would I think he’s a jerk? Would she now think he’s a jerk? blah blah blah
…and that’s that. My drama for the year. I’m over it now…until one of the other of those two talks to me. If they’re smart, they’ll give me a few weeks to forget how mad I am. If they’re not…I might have to hurt some people.
Comment by Mycroft — November 1, 2007 @ 6:47 am
Did you notice any unexpected lucky breaks coming your way that day? Did you go for it? =)
Comment by Naye — November 1, 2007 @ 5:35 pm
None. =( Maybe that was for next year…lol