I can’t sleep and I’ve been surfing the net for a couple of hours.  We went to the boyfriend’s parent’s house last night and I spent a couple of hours spoiling his new nephew.  As I rocking the baby and keep his hands away from his face that he was desperately trying to scratch to stay awake, the boyfriend’s said, “You look like a natural.  It’s like you’ve done this before.”

I said, “Just a few times.”

I walked away from there wondering if TBF wants kids.  After he decided that he can’t live without us, he also stated that h doesn’t think he wants children any more considering we have three and if he has a child, he can no longer be a child.  Money for games and toys turns into money for diapers and children’s toys.  I don’t know if he said that because he was trying to make me feel better or if he really feels that way.  I can see him thinking that…but I can also see him saying it for my benefit.  Either way, that and a couple of posts from gaming friends going through divorces started making me scared again.  I’m gun shy when it comes to relationships and I know it.

Changing the topic, I got new bedroom furniture…well, knew to me.  I’d been looking for a new dresser for a while and my mom was helping me out.  I hadn’t heard from her in a few days so I called and asked if she was still looking.  She said, “You’re going to make me tell you, aren’t you?”  She found some old furniture on Criagslist that people were giving away.  The tops were all stained and it needed some work, but nothing she and my dad couldn’t do.  Because the furniture had a laminate top on it (which is why it was being given away), they couldn’t sand it down and refinish it…so they put formica tops on it.  The pattern is a marbled mix of browns.  It turned out pretty.  The rest of it could all be fixed with furniture polish and those neat little pens that cover nicks. It looks great!  I got two night stands, a highboy, and a dresser all for $60 total (that includes all the stuff to fix it and the gas it took to go get it).

Just a couple of weeks ago, I got home to find a new kitchen table…lol  My mom had found it on Craigslist while looking for me new chairs.  $50 for a walnut table with 2 leifs and 6 chairs (2 captains chairs).  Nothing at all was wrong with it.  It looks great!

I’m going to have to work a little harder to get the other two puppies sold.  They’re starting to get more personality and I’m starting to get more attached.  It’ amazing to me how Mia can walk through the house and all you hear are her nails against the tile floors.  These two tiny puppies though walk through the house and sound like a heard of elephants…lol  They come running to me as soon as I walk in the door and start jumping up and down, tails a wagging.  I don’t know if they do it because Mia does or if they just know I’m a sucker and will pet them and usually give them treats…lol  They don’t do this to the guys though.

I’m going to try to get some more sleep before taking Ethan to school.  I have the day off since I worked last weekend.  W00t!  I needed a three day weekend. =D